THE HANGOVER
THE HANGOVER
And so
they rush back to the pubs as if they were
Bees
plumbing flowers, wrecking the stem that would
Save them
by preserving some source of life. Grateful
As grubs
given lease to the light beneath stones as
They’re
lifted, and kissing the glass with more ardour
Than they
would a girlfriend, parent, partner, or wife.
But,
people, as you fill your throats it’s a double edged
Sword
you’ll soon swallow. For while a returned taste
Of
freedom enables you all to feel safe; there is already
The sense
that this will be a kind of trap that ensnares
You; a
cruel deceit, gifted, stolen when after consuming
The
proximity and exposure enhances contagion and
Strives
to send you DT—ing back to your cage. As you
Wake on
Sunday, primed, pleased how will you define
Your
hangover? The Delirium Tremens that shakes you
May come
from the last four months shock, as removed
From the
real it takes an ice-cold pint to remind you
That the
blood you’ve felt stalling can only pump again
At
drink’s dock. We’ve all been boats bobbing
By an
unsteady quay, let’s be honest, waiting for
The vast
sea to claim us and onto which we can sail now
And
crest, towards the individual horizons we seek, or,
To our
own private islands, where a Sunday’s satisfaction
Is
arrived at through the pleasure of a Saturday night
Lager
test. Last night I drank with a friend over zoom,
Neither
of us wanted to venture out. It unnerved us,
Not at
the need to drink, but behaviour and the proper lack
Of
precaution we saw - on the news of the lads and lasses,
Too,
drowning sorrow, while seemingly unaware that the normal,
As if you
could sup it back, felt like war. So, who were the true
Victims;
us? Not wanting to conform to the chaos, or those
Crammed
by counters, or tapping their apps for a short?
The
approximations abound, in this bad photocopy
Of the
former pictures made; experience as flat image,
For iPhone
photos in reminding us of life soon distort,
And the
drinks we once shared surrender some of their
Flavour
and Pavlov’s Dogs resume licking at the wound
Of the
world, by pub doors. Last night, did the returning
Hordes
drink to forget, or did they merely indulge
To
remember? As the headaches hum around lunchtime,
I wonder
if any of us truly know what’s been wrought.
Drink is
always a refuge of course, a willingness to become
As one
with the waters which comprise most of the world
And our
bodies, a subsumation perhaps to the start, of life
Itself in
the sea and the still dreamt palisades of Atlantis;
Has such
a Utopia been imagined in climbing aboard each
Pub’s
fleet? Who knows? We drink deep to feel part of
Something.
My simple fear is, that cramming, that need
To return
stays a dream, as the ship hollows out
And the
bonhomie bridles, and a passing taste of past
Pleasure
soaks and unties each soft seam. We aren’t held
Together
by much. Only by promises and illusions. And so,
It is the
friends you must savour, not the drink as such.
Scale the
need. For after the pleasure and pain there will
Always
remain the vast question: Just what is it we are doing
In order
to once again feel the same? Like John Mills in the film
Ice Cold
in Alex, we have endured endless desert. The Pure’s
Been
parched. We’ve cracked flame. And yet a flame rarely dies.
There is
a constancy to all fire. So, in reclaiming the drink,
Floods
are fashioned. The river flows further and always
Towards
the sea’s gain. The waves roar today, as a
Worrying
shadow hangs over the return of the light sent
To blind
them and a new and brutish path towards blame.
So, I sit
and confuse about what will happen in the coming
Days
doused by drinking and of how celebration may sour
When
Saturday night comes again.
David Erdos July 5th 2020
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David Erdos is an actor, writer, director with over 300 professional credits. He is a published poet, playwright, essayist and illustrator. He has lectured on all disciplines in theatre and film for leading performing arts colleges, schools and universities around the world. His books include EASY VERSES FOR DIFFICULT TIMES, THE SCAR ON THE CLOUD, OIL ON SILVER, NEWS FROM MARS, CHANGING PLACES WITH LIGHT (penniless press) and BYZANTIUM with the photographer Max Reeves. He is a contributing editor for The International Times and maker of documentaries all over the world. David’s work has been acclaimed by many leading figures including Harold Pinter, Heathcote Williams, Alan Moore, Andrew Kotting, Chris Petit and Iain Sinclair in whose recent book THE LAST LONDON, David features. He can be reached at David.erdos@sky.com.
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